A New Day

Going through care for an illness that lasts for months can be daunting and exhausting. My goal has been to take each day as it comes and try not to look at the bigger picture. Nights can be long and sleepless, but I force myself to stay in bed. Even if I put on the headsets and watch TV. This at least keeps the downstairs to the daytime and something to look forward to. I get up each morning around 7 AM to try to keep some kind of a pattern. Many days I feel excited when I see it is finally 7 AM. I get in the shower and start my day. I try to wear comfortable clothes that make me feel good. Not sloppy. Treating each day as though something special is going to happen somehow helps me. At least through the first part of the day. Even with this, some days like today seem unbearable. I feel like I have the worst case of the flu, along with pain in the bones and every follicle in my body. Trying to keep up on my fluids and keep healthy foods down me is difficult. Then on top of that managing cramping from constipation. I am praying that I can feel more comfortable tomorrow. It is overwhelming to know I have to go through this three more times. Sometimes just the weight of my little 9 pound dog on my lab is something I can’t tolerate. Man I am complaining today. I try to stay positive. I listened to the Calm app so try to relax, but at times relaxing is just not something my body can do. I pray that this will ease up a bit.

Going to bed now in hopes of a better new day.